When I was little, I made the biggest stupid thing in my life and shaved an invisible mess around my stomach and whole breasts. Because of that, my hair strengthened, causing me to cry, it was velus hair now they are terminal. I'm sure for 100% that it's a shave strenght them, because in places where I didn't shave them they are not visible. I have no hormonal problems or diseases. I'm a living example that shaving make hair more visibiel and thick. I want to commit suicide for this reason, I think about it many times, you may think it's just hair, but for my appearance is very importan to me. Sorry for my english, but this is not my mother tongue. I tried to shave it, but it was a vicious circle, I would have to do it everyday and I'm sick of it, black dots are so visible, I'm crying, I tried depilators, waxing, sugaring, threading, epistick and my skin was only red, very irritated and they were almost verywhere ingtow hair that couldn't pass through skin.
These hairs are not very long but visible because I have a pale complexion and they are black. I was on laser hair removal, I was about 5 times and there is some reduction maybe 20%, but the person doing that told me lately that she don't guarantee me that they will disappear 100% and after I spent so much money and the effect is poor she told me that new hair will grow and it's not possible to get rid of hair with laser and they will grow more every year. I'm angry that I didn't knew it earlier. Now I want to stop it because it costs my a lot of money, effect will not be permanent, if i had to to touch up every month it doesn't have sense. Laser hair removal was my last hope and now I don't have any hope. Undressing itself was so traumatizing for me because that person was the first person which saw me with this hair.
It's just hair, but it feels like zero. Hair on the legs, bikini, armpits - I have no problem,I shave them but everyone have them and who has hair on stomach and breast? It's not one hair or two, the whole area and it's all by my stupidity. I regret it so much.
I feels like nothing. I hate looking at these places, when I put bra I do it very fast and don't look, it's too traumatizing for me. I want to kill myself. I will never have boyfriend live normally because I don't accept it and I will never accept it, I have only two ways first is suicide and second get rid of hair which is not possible. I would like to live but I cant' with all this sh**. All my other complexes are nothing comparing to it. I would like someone to help me get rid of this ****. I read about electrolyses that they say it is permanent but I don't know anyone in my country which can do it and I'm so scared of scarring - it's too big areas I don't want to have it ruined with scarring and other things. I can't rejoice my life with that. I can't look at myself sometimes. If they would be gone I would be so happy. I would pay every money and do everything if I could get rid of them without even worse consequences like scarring etc. They are thin (however thicker than it was when I didn't shave it) but black and visible.
I know it's chaotic, and I'm so sorry for my English but I don't have anyone to talk about it. I never show it to anyone except that person which made laser removal on me. I know people have more important problems in life but it's not comforting to me
Laser hair removal was my last hope and now I don't have any hope.
I think about euthanasia. You probably think that I'm stupid and it's just hair, people have more important problems, but to me my life is not worth anything. I can't be happy with that. I know they are people with hirsutism and they can have family, be happy, but I definately can't do it. It's too much traumatizing for me. I'm too weak mentally. I wish someone could give me hope to get rid of this for 100% but I don't have no one who could. I know that without that I would be attractive, I'm poorly hairy from nature, my hair on legs, hand, armpits are weak (black but thin), but in this two aearias I wrote about... they are visible for me and I can't accept it, if i shave it there are black spots and they are visible, if i wax/sugar/thread it they are ingrow and causing pimple, cremes for epilation make my skin irritated and they give the same effect as shaving, if laser removal is not permanent, and i will have to do it forever every months it doesn't have sense, bleaching them burned my skin, now I don't have any solutions. I wish they were gone, I wish someone give me hope, I wish someone understand me. Writing all this cost me a lot.